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My Life is a lit |Story| Part 1

My Life is a lit |Story| Part 1

13 July, 2020

what did you do? you dropped the cup it’s good that you didn’t break it are you blind? Pick it up sister-in-law I dropped it by mistake dropped it by mistake? and who will make lunch? I’ll get to it as soon as I wash the dishes why do you delay it so much, when you know I eat lunch early there is nothing to cook with at home, mother has gone to buy some vegetables, let her come you and your mother never leave an opportunity to annoy me she knows I eat lunch early, then why has she just left? she was a little under the weather today, it won’t happen again enough….

Do your work after you’ve swept, you have to go for the groceries, remember? yes, I remember move your hands like you move your tongue pick up the cup what happened? did she shout at you again? what else can she do, mother? it’s okay give it to me when something is written in one’s fate… then one has to endure it until how long will we live with this fate, mother? will we have to tolerate this, all our lives? will our circumstances ever change? be quiet if she hears it, then we’ll have another problem to worry about think of it this way…

When it is written in your fate to be pushed around then one has to tolerate it what a hassle you are are you going somewhere? I am the owner of the factory… I have to come and go is there a problem? no, no, I asked you… because… it is the second time you are coloring your hair this week that is why how many times have I told you to keep to yourself? not to poke your nose in my business just lay on your bed silently I’m sick of you…

You’ve made my life a living hell you’re just a problem what happened father? Why are you being so angry? I can’t hide anything from you dear… she is constantly meddling in my affairs I’ve had enough of her all the time she is asking stupid questions make her understand father, please! can’t you see how unwell she is? and right now she needs you the most mother, forget about what he said tell me how are you feeling today? dear… don’t ask me this question daily I will never get better like this… I’ll stay inside this room… in a corner I will die listening to your father’s taunts mother, please don’t talk so hopelessly if something happens to you, who will take care of me? you know that…

I love you both more than anything in the world and when you fight, I feel really bad and… the person I love the most in this world is my daughter, Aashi now get going dear, you’re getting late for college okay… but you won’t get angry at mother okay, okay, now go! mother, I am going, take care of yourself, I’ll be back soon farewell farewell I can’t walk for long mother who asked you to walk so far away? let me call you a cab no leave it, otherwise there will be the matter of the fare

When we get home it’s always like that hey Fazeela! greetings aunt, how are you? I am fine greetings aunt you’re very late to come back this time around it was my nephew’s wedding, we were bound to come back late come on my heart did not settle over there but now… it has settled seeing you come and visit us yes, of-course shall we go? yes come on Kamal yes the calculation was all clear when I did it inside the factory but why is there a difference of fifty-thousand now?

You’ll remember it where can it go? what is the matter? what are you two talking about so early in the morning? we’re calculating I’m setting up a new factory wow! this is very good but Zafar… look after your wife sometimes you haven’t taken her to the hospital in a while I don’t have the time that is very bad Zafar anyways… I’ll take her myself in the evening did Aimen not go to her college? she’s studying at home, her examinations are about to start, so her college is closed tell me about Shahmeer, how far has his education come along? Shahmeer?

Shahmeer is coming back next week from Islamabad my child has topped in his MBA class that is very good he has to support brother Khalid no Zafar my child will not visit that factory he will do his own business yes, yes, why not? you say whatever you feel like saying Shahmeer, will inherit the business of his father and grand-father I’ll bring some tea, both of you sit I’ll put the kettle on yes! now I remember where I spent the fifty-thousand hey, brother Kamal, what a pleasant surprise? greetings sister Shaheena, how are you? greetings, I am fine you guys took so long to come back we were busy in the wedding festivities, we came here as soon as they were finished look what I’m talking about, please come inside no, I came…

Because of some work yes brother Kamal, tell me what is it? sister Shaheena… Fazeela hasn’t made anything to eat, and I am very hungry and you know… when I eat out, I get sick if you’ve made something… that is a very small request, this is your home, no need to eat out ask Mahira to make some rice for me you don’t even have to ask, I was about to tell her the same thing if you… would give me some money, then I’ll tell Mahira, she’ll make you some excellent rice never worry about the money and anyways… I love eating Mahira’s cooking I’ll be leaving now brother Kamal yes? since you’re here… do something about Jawed’s job honestly I can’t live in this poverty anymore, I feel like drowning sister Shaheena, I’m back, aren’t I?
Don’t be worried I will take care of everything I’ll find him a job for now… ask Mahira to prepare the rice and bring it to me don’t you worry brother Kamal, I’ll send her I’ll be leaving now farewell what a clever person he is Mahira! Mahira! where are you Mahira? yes I’m coming where were you? I was doing the dishes go and make rice at this time? I’ve grown weary of your question and answers brother Kamal is back and his wife is busy in sweeping up their place so go and prepare some rice for him and when it’s done deliver it to him but don’t give him the entire dish leave some for us as well keep aside some meat portions for Jawed, otherwise he complains do you understand? now go Aimen… this is all of elder aunt’s clothing her room is locked so give it to her later okay? Ayesha? hmm?

Choose whatever clothes you want from this pile and give the rest to the needy are you alright? do you see the state of these clothes? will I wear these? mind your tongue all of these clothes are branded it’s just I don’t like them anymore if you don’t like them anymore then give it to someone who needs it I don’t need them but to me you are the one who needs it the most neither do you have good clothes nor good shoes you look like a maid Aimen maybe you are forgetting my father runs this house and I am her only child the only difference is that I don’t show off like you and maybe you are forgetting… that my brother is Shahmeer…

The sole inheritor of this entire property what are you two talking about? I’m giving Ayesha some of my best clothes and she is showing me her attitude are you seeing her? she always does this will I wear her worn-out clothes Aimen what kind of behavior is this? will Ayesha wear your worn-out clothes? if you like bringing her clothes so much… then bring her new clothes, what is this? Ayesha… you go she is insane go how many times have I told you… that don’t mess with Ayesha if she tells her father, then all of our lives will be ruined whatever it may be, don’t scold me like that in front of Ayesha you know about Khalid I am a mother, I have to take every step cautiously Khalid has gotten used to just sitting and eating it is Zafar… who was sharp enough to make so much property otherwise we would have no place to go who is it?

Thank you thank you come inside Mahira no brother Kamal, I just came here to bring you this I’ll be going now what? you just came here, I have been waiting for you for a while you are very late brother Kamal leave my hand brother Kamal leave my hand why? are hands… supposed to be so easily let go of who is it Kamal? oh Mahira! come inside no I just came here to bring the rice, I’ll be leaving now please come inside, at least let me thank you properly she needlessly made you work come it’s not a big deal, I came here to bring the rice, I have work at home come on she is a very nice girl hold this wow he’s very smart is he your cousin?

He is not my cousin, we met on Facebook he’s fallen so hopelessly in love with me, that if he doesn’t talk with me for a day, he loses his mind we talk hours and hours that is why I’m telling you to buy a smart phone how can I? It’s useless to ask mother and father they think that girls with smart phones cannot be controlled what kind of old-fashioned parents are these? why do all of these old people think the same way? I wonder what time they are from? when I talk about marriage, they say that they’ll marry me within the family and when I talk about anyone from outside the family, they refuse to even listen and all of my cousins are idiots anyways… Shakeel will be calling soon, I’ll be leaving now thanks to the Lord! mother sister-in-law where were you, it’s so late what should I tell you? we reached there at five o’ clock and got our turn at seven o’clock tell me what the doctor said ask me later, first take her… she is not well, she will want to rest what times have we come to? the tests were of seven thousand…

The doctor’s fees was two thousand and six thousand for the medicine everything is so expensive, right? it’s like spending money on a dead person she will never be cured I didn’t ask you for it that is because of your humility keep this if you want more, you can ask me no dear, no I don’t want to eat the medicine right now mother I am very tired, I’ll eat it in a while tell me something what did the doctor say? what would he have said? he ordered some tests they took some blood, let’s see what happens Parveen took care of all the expenses I know everything you took money from Zafar otherwise… you don’t have the heart to…

Spend so much I learned everything from you how much did you spend anyways? the total expenses were only a thousand but I told him… that the doctors ordered many tests Zafar is right in saying… she will not survive sometimes I think that if Parveen was not here then I would have died alone fighting my illness mother… what are you saying? your daughter is here with you that is true but this is also true mother… that auntie loves you like a sister do you know… I saw her arguing with father, for you? yes dear that is why I am so content that there is someone… that will take care of my daughter after I’m gone don’t talk like that mother and don’t think like that I’ll bring you something to eat, you didn’t eat much in the after-noon do you know Ayehsa… when you leave for your college…

From that moment I start waiting for you and when you come back it seems like all of my helplessness disappears I feel very protected now I don’t know… that this is because of your love or your sense of responsibilities where there is love… there are responsibilities and all I know is that my paradise lies beneath your feet we’ve talked enough…I’ll bring you some food okay? she can’t see anything besides her sickness you have outdone yourself you have planned everything to perfection if you like my planning so much… then learn something from me try and make a share for yourself inside the factory for how long will you be your younger brother’s servant okay that is enough, enough of your talks, sleep now, it’s getting late okay, I’ll keep the money inside it feels like someone has burned off my flesh I will not go to that man’s house ever again I will not go there Mahira? I will not go to that man’s house Mahira? what happened dear? huh? why are you crying? won’t you tell your mother?

Mom you used to say… if one does not have the shadow of a father over one’s head… then brothers are just like fathers but my brother is not even worthy enough to be called my brother what happened? Did Shaheena say something? what doesn’t she say? I went to Kamal’s today yes… he tried to grab my hand what?! we are dependent on them only because we are living on the scraps given to us by my brother Mahira! that… that bastard you see what I will do today let your brother Jawed come today… I will surely complain to him about this it is of no use he is an honorable person, when he finds out about this, he’ll go and break Kamal’s hands, you’ll see what will you complain about and to whom you will complain to? who will you complain about?

Will you complain about me? that I sent her to brother Kamal’s house and he grabbed her hand this is what you’ll complain to Jawed? tell me, did brother Kamal grab your hand? why are you lying? Brother Kamal is an honorable man Shaheena! what do you want? Do you want Jawed and I to fight and that we are separated? for God’s sake look at my daughter’s state, how can you talk to her like that? You should complain to Jawed I say get up and come with me! come with me to brother Kamal’s, we’ll see what the truth really is, come on! leave my daughter alone and end this right here, right now I’m not after her, I want the truth to be revealed…

Let us find out who grabbed who, and if this turns out to be a lie… if this turns out to be a lie, then I will defame the both of you in the neighborhood for God’ sake what are you saying Shaheena? You will do no such thing, my daughter will be defamed in the neighborhood I want this to end, right here, right now… I want this to end, why are you sitting here? Come with me no one will say anything to Jawed, tell her Mahira that we won’t say anything you were only concerned about her respect, but what about mine? and what about the things you want to tell Jawed about me? we won’t say a word to him I beg for your forgiveness sister-in-law…

Forgive me forgive me, I made a mistake, I must have misread the situation misread the situation? made a mistake? because of your mistake, there will be a fight between Jawed and I, then you both can be happy go away from here, leave us alone for God’s sake we are weak we are weak don’t say anything don’t say anything there will always be a lack of money inside this home seven thousand were spent on the groceries… the electricity bill was of four thousand and all that is left is six thousand how can I make it work in just six thousand?

Pray to God there is bound to be something better He has planned for us yes, that is quite right put everything on God and turn a blind eye on your incompetence the street vendor on the edge of the street is better than you at least he gives his wife some money at the end of each day I work so hard Shaheena what more can I do? you work like a mule even then you earn less than that street vendor for God’s sake I am very tired right now… I neither have the heart nor the will to fight listen to me clearly, I can’t manage in such a frugal way times have changed, everything is so expensive now for this house to function, everyone has to work hard without hard work, it can’t go on and your mother and sister are not making it any easier what do you mean?

It means, I have decided… Mahira will work too and that is final no, no Mahira can’t work outside, she doesn’t know how the world works, she is very naive she is not naive, she is very clever, she well and truly knows how the world works and if I put her to work somewhere, I will be very careful I won’t just put her to work anywhere she is my sister-in-law after all don’t you trust me? just give me… permission to put her to work… then see… how both of us will earn listen… are you listening to me? I am talking to you okay… then I’m leaving this house you keep on surviving in this frugal way what is this behavior?

You know I won’t let you leave this home I love you Shaheena love isn’t worth anything, when one is broke and I’m saying all of this for your sake you are the one who will benefit from this if you benefit from this, then I’ll benefit from it and also the rest of the house okay then…do whatever you want however you want to do it the deal that was being talked about, has it been completed yes the talks are going on and God willing it will be done it will be done in our favor if God wills so I’ll arrange a religious party, it’s been a long time since God’s name has been taken inside this home listen…

Give me some money for the expenses of the house why? you took money from Zafar yesterday use that for the expenses no, no, I will not spend that money I’ll keep that safe, now give me some money okay I will father, buy me a phone a phone, why? there is a phone at home everyone of my college mates has one, please buy me one the thought of owning a phone has possessed her mind have you ever seen Ayesha make such requests? what do I have to do with Ayesha? In which time are you living in? I want a phone and that’s it don’t speak nonsense, I don’t have any money you have enough money for Shahmeer to study in Islamabad, but for me you have nothing okay that is enough don’t create such a fuss…

And you won’t get a phone, now go go! go now! that girl has such an attitude I’m astonished do one thing… keep this money, I will take it from you tomorrow okay remember there is no need to buy her a phone the times of today are very bad if something happens, where will we show our faces? don’t you worry… she’ll forget about it soon okay, I’ll be leaving then okay good let me drink my tea listen, no need to open your mouth in front of Jawed, otherwise I’ll break your face what are you doing? I told you I won’t tell brother Jawed anything I don’t know what you and your mother talk about all day long, while I’m working…

And the son is always at the feet of his mother, look he has left for her room again how are you mother? after so many days you thought of your mother that is the problem with you I come here and sit with you, I want to talk to you… but you start taunting me that is why I don’t talk to you often for God’s sake ask your mother not to say something stupid in front of Jawed, go from here how’s work? you have no idea how hard I work you rest all day it is Shaheena who is willing that she manages the home in such a low income it is a big achievement yes it is when once in the same income…

I used to manage my home and… used to pay the rent but you won’t remember all of that, since you are very busy I’m getting late be sure to have breakfast okay stay protected in God’s shadow stay protected in God’s shadow are you seeing this? his heart has grown hard for his mother, he has forgotten everything I worked so hard to raise him let him be mother… when the son doesn’t care about his mother, then the mother should also stop caring about her son no I don’t care about myself what I’m worried about is… that after me…

What will they do to you? what are you saying? I will die without you I pray you live a long prosperous life I get very scared I am with you aunt… are you going somewhere? how may time have I told you Ayesha… that one doesn’t stop someone who is going somewhere? it is not nice to do that sorry, I saw you and that is why… I’m inviting the neighborhood for areligious party on Sunday wow! that is very good it is because of sister Shagufta’s health God’s name will be taken inside the house that will have a positive impact on her health aunty… you are so nice nobody thinks about my mother as much as you do sister Shagufta is just like my elder sister it is only in relation that she is younger than me you’ve distracted me again, go and do your work umm Ayesha…

Will you do something for me? yes, of-course will you change my room’s bed covers? I asked Aimen two days ago, but she still hasn’t done it I don’t know what will become of her I’ll do it such a good girl you are you’ve wasted all of my time, you talk too much come in, where have you been all this time? How are you? I am fine, where will I go? look at you, always busy with house work oh really! And what about you, showing your face after such a long time yes, you’re right, anyways I’m here now yes you did good greeting brother Kamal greetings, sit, sit don’t ask about her, if it were up to her she would tear this house brick by brick and start over all he needs is a chance and you have given that to him if it were up to him he wouldn’t even let me walk now he is asking me to keep a maid, so that she can do all the work now tell me Shaheena, how much work can two people create? did I say something wrong in all of this? brother Kamal is right you should be happy, sister-in-law you have such a nice husband, not letting you do any work now will you make us some tea, or will you just keep on talking? why only tea and not breakfast?

No, no sister-in-law, you don’t need to do anything, I just had breakfast I’ll just have tea, with a teaspoon of sugar okay, I’ll bring it how’s everybody at home? everything’s fine I came here because I had some important thing, I wanted to discuss with you yes sister Shaheena, tell me Jawed left for office in a hurry and… forgot to take these bills with him, I’ve been asking him to take for a while but he doesn’t listen the office is more important to him, look it’s the last date today here is the money, would you please pay it? don’t worry about it, I’ll take care of it did you not see this? the bill is of five thousand brother Kamal, would you please pay it, you know about the shortage of money we have I’ll pay back the remaining four thousand later I didn’t mean it like that, it’s nothing to worry about.

I’ll pay it… and anyways… brothers don’t ask money from their sisters I’ll pay it be sure to pay it by today you don’t worry about that I’ll pay it right after I have breakfast okay, I’ll be going then have your tea no, I’ll come and have it some other time sister-in-law, I’ll have the tea some other time, farewell Shaheena wait, the tea is almost ready Rabia I’m sitting in your room, come here, you can do your work later here I come you’ve also made tea? yeah, I thought since you’re here you would at least have some tea yes, yes, why not here I don’t go anywhere in the morning I’m not lucky like you…

You don’t have to do work, nor cook anything your sister-in-law does all the work and my mother-in-law shops for the groceries thanks to the Lord yes you’re right, thanks to the Lord now tell me, from where have you come from all of a sudden? I had my neighbor, brother Kamal, to pay my bill… and he won’t take money from me what? why is that? he is in love with Mahira, insanely in love so I thought why shouldn’t I reap some benefits from this he does all my work because of this he would be asking something in return?

Yes, he does… anyways leave this matter and tell me about what I asked you to do what did you ask me to do? I asked you to find some work for Mahira now I remember, there is a relative of ours… their sister-in-law has a job, so she needs a maid for the children tell me… what are they willing to give? don’t you worry about the money, they are giving six thousand what? yes six thousand? no, it is not enough then how much do you need? if we can get ten thousand then that would be perfect think about it,

If Mahira works a job, then all of the house work will be left behind with me and a maid will cost me at least twelve hundred to fifteen hundred I should also reap some benefits now, shouldn’t I? I have to give it to you, you plan very far ahead I’ve thought about a-lot of things I would have her married to someone who is willing to pay five lac to me I’ll get rid of her and at the same time have money in my pockets by God! It is very hot outside God help us everything has become so expensive that no one works… without an advance payment not even the religious vocalist have time what times have we come to?

What should I do? hello! yes I’m sending Faraz give him the money… that I’ve given you okay I’ll give it to him let me see where the money is where is the money? where is it? where is the money? Aimen! I kept it right here Aimen! hurry come here! yes? I kept the money here, did you see it? I didn’t see it they must be right here, let me see it what will I tell your father? I’ll be in a world of hurt did you find it? no, they really aren’t here did someone steal it? steal it? who will steal it?

You asked Ayesha to change your bed covers, right? she must be the one who has stolen the money no, no Ayesha can’t steal it so what do you think, I stole it? you wait, I’ll bring Ayesha here and force her to tell the truth Ayesha! oh God! we’ve been robbed in broad daylight, what should I do? I’ll call Aimen’s father hello! Aimen’s father the money is not in the closet I don’t know, I kept it right there you’ve dressed me up quite nicely sit down you feel relaxed after a bath, right?

Yes I feel very relaxed I feel fresh, may you be blessed you sit right here, I’ll bring you your medicine mother is calling you, come with me what happened Aimen? you go, I’ll come after I give mom her medicine first you stole and now you’re arguing with me what are you saying Aimen? Are you in your senses? I did not steal any money what are you doing? Why did you slap her?

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